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Live Life to Learn
Step into my world of stories, reflections, and life lessons. Here, I share my thoughts and experiences: raw, honest, real, and respectful.
Explore, connect, and maybe even discover a piece of yourself in my words.


Why You Should Never Beg Someone to Stay
Sometimes love ends not because we stop caring, but because holding on means losing ourselves. Begging someone to stay isn’t love, it’s forgetting your worth.
Lyda Ngin
3 min read


Maybe What Has Happened Is Necessary: Life Lessons at 40
On the first morning of my 40s, I woke up seeing life differently. What felt like loss has become one of my greatest lessons — a reminder that vulnerability isn’t weakness, that growth begins with awareness, and that love expands when we learn to serve beyond ourselves.
Lyda Ngin
2 min read


When Being Seen Feels Like Too Much
A few unexpected words caught me off guard. Not because they hurt, but because they saw something I’ve kept hidden. In meditation, the feeling lingered, a quiet shift, a strange tremor. Maybe it was recognition.
Lyda Ngin
2 min read


Mother: A Word I Still Struggle To Define
A personal reflection on growing up without a mother figure, confronting infertility, and finding peace through self-nurturing and acceptance.
Lyda Ngin
2 min read


Love Life, and Life Loves You Back
After rushing through dating, filling every hour with movement, and trying to reclaim my sense of worth, I finally paused and asked my life what it truly needed. This is a reflection on slowing down, tuning in, and learning how to live with love, and be loved by life in return.
Lyda Ngin
3 min read


Not Everything Needs a Response
Among the towering sequoias, time slowed—and so did my reactions. This reflection explores the quiet power of stillness, choosing peace over impulse, and learning that not everything demands a response.
Lyda Ngin
1 min read


Chasing Feeling
What I thought I was missing in someone else, I’ve realized I’ve been craving in myself. This piece is about the quiet moment of recognizing emotional patterns, learning from fleeting connections, and choosing to show up fully for yourself.
Lyda Ngin
2 min read


I Long for Your Love
A personal reflection on the kind of love that doesn’t shy away from depth—one that grows, communicates, and remains rooted in emotional honesty. I explore the lessons of past connections while holding space for the love I still believe in.
Lyda Ngin
2 min read


Breaking Free: Understanding When It’s Time to Walk Away
There comes a time when love is no longer love—it becomes self-sacrifice, a slow erosion of confidence, and a silent acceptance of things th
Lyda Ngin
2 min read


I Regret That I Regretted
Regret is a tricky thing—it can feel like a lesson or a heavy burden. I’ve spent time wrestling with my regrets, but I’ve also realized that
Lyda Ngin
2 min read


The Love of My Life & a Cry for Help
I’ve spent my life searching for a love that feels real—one that isn’t just about words, but about presence, connection, and understanding.
Lyda Ngin
3 min read


After All These Years, I'm Still Figuring Life
I have come to a realization: I know nothing about life. After all these years, time has flown by so quickly, and I feel like I’ve lost my y
Lyda Ngin
2 min read


Done Pretending
I spent years shrinking myself in a marriage that made me feel small, unheard, and unloved. This is the moment I stop pretending—and start choosing myself.
Lyda Ngin
1 min read


How I Escaped & Faced Fear
I am choosing to fight.
I am choosing to be truly independent.
Because for the first time,
I believe I need this.
I believe in myself.
Lyda Ngin
2 min read


My Childhood Relationship
A raw self-reflection on childhood trauma, the chains of survival, and the quiet courage it takes to choose yourself—even when fear tries to pull you back. A letter to the self, written in love and awakening.
Lyda Ngin
3 min read


The Girl Who Was Afraid of Everything
I was afraid of everything—from spade cards to rejection, from losing love to losing myself. But fear didn’t stop me; it shaped me. This is a reflection on how I’ve grown from a frightened girl into a woman who walks beside fear, with courage, grace, and a deeper understanding of herself. I was The Girl Who Was Afraid of Everything
Lyda Ngin
2 min read
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